my girl. 

pesha:

dear nmq,

i’m not sure if i ever told you about the summers he and i would spend apart. we were together for many years, during some of the most formative years of a person’s life. so some summers, we would “take a break.” we were scared to miss out on experiences. we were young. no one understood it, but it always felt like the right thing to do. and we always came back to one another. of course, until we didn’t anymore. but one year, one summer, when he got nervous, i wrote him a letter on a card that contained the most perfect quotation. and here it is:

"life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next. delicious ambiguity." - gilda radner

that’s it for me: the delicious ambiguity. i spent so many years focused on that notion. i’ve built an empire using that as my mantra. some think ambiguity is tantamount to…surgery without anesthesia? or like being tossed into a canoe without a life jacket. i understand them, but i don’t know any other way to be. 

so here’s a blessing to a life filled with ambiguity. as long as it’s delicious!

-me